I just started writing in this again. It has been a really long time since i last wrote in here. Anyway, my life is starting as an adult and it feels no different. Still hating school, still wanting a fixable car, still having arguments with people i don't want to argue with. What now? Is anything really supposed to change? Should i start smoking again? Well just have to wait and find out what's going to happen to me in this crazy mixed up world.

school has started and i'm already tired or it. to be perfectly honest, the only reason that i'm still going on with this education bullshit is because mil wants me to. i'm trying to finish high school then college then graduate school....once i'm done with those i can do whatever i want right, and what i want is to marry mildred and then start our own family and be happy for the rest of our lives! also, i want her to do the same exact. anyway, school was boring and i have to try my best to stay awake in fucking drake's class....for some reason, it's so fucking hot in there and the way he speaks, it's his fucking voice, it just makes me sleepy....gatta stay awake!!!!

i haven't written in this blog for a really long time. i guess i was busy with work and what not....but something good happened today.

earlyer this week my car broke down and the transmission would catch gear, so my parents said that were going car hunting. i really wanted to get a stick car, but they forced me to look at trucks. so yeah, i started looking at trucks, tacoma's, tundra's, and F150's. anyway, we look and find that tacoma's are the best. so we went around everywhere looking at different tacoma's, even got some bullshit from a dealer. we then went to bob baker toyota and i test drove a silver four door v6. very fucking nice! we got the tacoma for a really nice deal with a bed liner...oh shit! after that i drove it around a little and really enjoy that car right now. i also get this paint sealant that protects the paint job and that i don't have to wax it for a really long as fucking time. anyway, me and mildred got into something, and now i don't know what to think about it....maybe i could figure it out later cause i still can't figure this out.....

august 4, 2003....today is our one year anniversiary. crazy isn't it? i can't believe that this girl i'm with has been with me for more than three months. deng.... the day started out with me picking her up then us heading over to my house. i cooked her breakfast and hung around my baby cousin and aunt. then we went out for lunch over at mcdonalds where cer works. we got food then into a fight again...yeah.... all the fighting we do is so much harder because we actually love each other. anyway, we then headed back to the house and played with my baby cousin again. after, we went into my room, played video games (cool part), listen to music, and watched tv. then got a call from cer and met up with some homies at bayview and chilled for a little. after me, my baby, and cer went over to some mexican resturant so that the could eat. after me and mildred went to coronado to walk and take pictures. while there we saw this really coolio dog....it's called a shitsu. we walked and took pictures of ourselves and minor things that has sentimental value to us. it turns out that a scrap book is going to arrive in our future. anyway, i dropped her off and then went home, but not before kissing her and granting her a happy anniversiary and yelling out loud "I LOVE YOU!"